Alas, the train of thought does not always follow through. I stood there in the rain, teardrops embodied with the heavy and cold drops. I stood there, not knowing what was happening. How could I let this happen. What am I to you ? My mouth was agape. I need them. I need you. Come back. Don't drive of baby. I need you. Don't leave me. Please, I beg of you. Please.
My heart cried out. I felt so indignant. All those I called friends. My closest friends. Left me. Suddenly. I was left there questioning what I did wrong. I cried. I didn't know what to do. What did you want from me ? I am just a girl. You left me. Cruel society. Is that how you play this game ? Well I don't wanna play this game anymore. I concede defeat. Let me go back with you. I'd do anything. Don't leave me alone.
I trusted you. Where were you when I needed you most ? Oh wait. When I needed you, you were out having fun, socializing. I took a risk. To be with you. But. You turned otherwise. Sigh. You don't know how much I love you. Please give me a chance. Take me with you wherever you go. I love you. Don't leave. Please. All of you. Don't ignore me. I need love and care too. Please. I feel so useless. I am part of the team you know. Don't leave me hanging. I am sorry for everything. I feel so desperate, but I'm ready to get on my knees. Please.
Wait. don't go. Sigh. Nevermind. All of you are bored of me. I'm not part of you. I never was. I am just a part of the background, where you are the stars. I am just a speck of dust. Let me be then. If that's what you want. Let me be alone. Torn apart and alone. I just wanted to fit in. I will just stand there. Be that background. You won't notice me even if I'm gone will you ? All of you. None will appreciate me. I'll slowly fade away. Just like that. Goodbye.
And as I said the last line, I stood over the edge of the building. Gun aimed at the head. I was contemplating whether death my gun was better death by jumping off. I took one last look at the world. And there, I fell. I felt like a bird, soaring above the others. And then, a sharp pain before darkness took over my world.
