Heartwreching.

Disappointment oozes out every pore. The stench of the hatred hung in the air. Even though we were not face to face, I cowered in fear. Maybe you don't know this, but you are someone who is so important to me. I never want to lose you. I don't hear your voice, but I imagine your expression. It was nothing more than the exchange of a few words. It hurt me deeply. I don't know why. I didn't mean to be rude or offensive, and yet, perhaps, deep inside, it's because those words came from you. Maybe that's why I felt so sad and depressed when I read those words of yours. Were they on impulse? Were they on purpose ? I'll never know, but it hurts. When you stopped trying to care, I gave up hope. I let my tears stream down. I lost all sense of my sight, blurred by heavy tears. I was trying to gather the courage. Just enough courage for me to tell you everything, but when you stopped, all attempts of past trials left as well. Everything. Every will, every sense of love and care from you, vaporized into thin air. My sobs were soundless, tears overflowing with emotion. Perhaps, it's just wishful thinking, but really. I never push you away on purpose. It's those emotional barriers I've put up. Try a little harder ? You'll break through, I believe in you. Is my heart supposed to ache so much. I don't know why. Even for just a day, I wouldn't wanna go without knowing you're fine. 

I know it's weird, but I'm sentimental. You matter a lot. I don't wanna lose the friendship. Please. If I have the courage, I will tell you everything. Every single detail about my life. But, the reason I don't want to is that I'm afraid I'll burden you, and one day, you'll leave me. I don't want you to stop caring. Just care a way that'll get through to me ? So please, don't leave me and make me feel unwanted again.